Well, I actually never intended on writing anything in this so called journal, but now I´ve been sick for a couple of days and I´m bored out of my mind. I´ll share one of my thoughts with you.
I spend the last few weeks understanding and analyzing the thoughts of great philosophers. A big part of philosophy is looking for the answers of all those big questions. Which brings me to my utterly, well, how should I put this... pointless question: Is god an autist?

Whether this question is blasphemic or just down right pointless doesn´t matter. I just recognized some of those parrallels.

1 - God moves in strange ways
2 - We can have no knowlege of God, besides the one we attain through prayer and all that
3 - God is pretty awesome at the stuff he does (creating the world and all)

These attributes are the ones which apply to God, how did I get to my conclusion now?

As for 1, God acts in a way we don´t understand. His actions are not allways so easy for us to interprit, just like the ones of an autist. Why would you not eat yellow food or not be able to eat food which touched other food while laying on the plate, although it´ll touch in your stomache for sure. I guess an autist has his reason why, which is not less valid, only because we don´t understand. Problem is, he, the autist, usually has a hard time comunicating with its surroundings. Just like God. Every ones in a while some poor soul thinks he´s a prophet, because he falsly interprits his schizophrenia for the voice of good. Well, this is actually already a part of number two, I guess I got a little ahead of myself. Well I mean we can test an autist in all kinds of ways, but in the end we´ll eventually end up in a dead end, that is when we try to identify just why something is a go or no go. Well, you could say, that all these things could be explained by neurotic fits or some other sort of psychology stuff, but I will overlook it, because I´m trying to apply the same rules to all autists. The mortal ones and the martini sipping ones, who sit uppon the clouds playing scrabble in heaven.
Finally 3. Autists are so awesome at the stuff they do. Not everything, just a couple of fields, or maybe only one, dunno. The other fields are usually left behind, or are less than average, like communicating or sociallizing thith others.

So, we have a person who can do stuff very well. lets say creating objects and living things, but wont answer, if spoken to, or asked for something. He acts in ways we cannot understand and won´t be able to understand his motives, because they escape our intellectual grasp.

So in conclusion we could say, that God is merely a really talented kid who doesn´t play well with others, especially not when they don´t obey him (adam and eve) and needs his medicine, in his case the prayers of believing followers.

I think it is a nice thought, if you´d overlook the logical holes and the fact that I, the author, am atheist and don´t give a flying fuck.

have a good night

P.S. If you happen to find spelling mistakes, be my guest and keep them.